Sunday, March 28, 2010


Miracles. . . When we speak of miracles nowadays, we often think of the extraordinary like walking on water, the dead rising, events defying the laws of nature and somehow we kind of associate it with magic. Jesus performed a lot of miracles during his time. In our time, are there still miracles?

I believe that miracles still happen. When I was in a camp in Cambodia, Robert (one of the organizers), shared his life story. About a year ago, he was diagnosed with cancer and was told to have only six months to live. He was practically a "dead man walking". He has a wife and two teenagers. The Christian community in his place started an email brigade asking for prayers from christians all over the world. He promised God that he will dedicate his life for God's ministry. After about six months of power prayer, he was free from cancer. He now lives his life for God's ministry. For me, this is a miracle.

His story touched me and deepened my belief in the power of prayer. Robert was a living testimony of what God can do. In our own lives, we only have to open our hearts and eyes and we can see the miracles that God is doing in our lives. It may not be as impacting as the story of Robert, but it is enough to change the course of our lives.

Do you believe in miracles?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

get out

The AOF high is starting to wear off. If only I can freeze time and remain at the camp in Cambodia. That trip was one of the most fulfilling one this year. I was truly happy and never thought of my problems. Now, I'm back to reality. Facing the life that is far from perfect. Yet maybe it is perfect. I just don't know it yet. As my Singaporean friend states, "God knows the bigger picture. Trust in Him because He is leading you somewhere." I have learned to stop asking why and start asking where.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

best friends

I just had a wonderful quiet time with my friends. We had dinner and went for coffee. This day has been perfect. Thank you Lord.

Saturday, March 6, 2010


We all go through life alone. We die alone. Yes, we have family and friends around us. But at the end of the day, we are all alone. We all experience loneliness and uncertainties. It has given me great comfort that God is always with us. Nowadays, I have literally been abiding with God. Whenever I feel alone, I have found myself talking to God. I imagine that God is literally walking with me. It gives me a sense of security and peace. The mind truly can do wonders. God provided us with intellect for us to be able to cope up with life. I believe that God wants us to continually call on him. HE wants to be a part of every aspect of our lives. And I like that. I am at peace knowing that God is in control and HE knows best.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Dear God

I came home last night from Toasmasters Club feeling elated. Once again, I was asked to speak and I am excited to become a member of an organization which teaches people how to speak eloquently. I have really enjoyed attending their meetings and I found myself imagining what to say during the Table Topics Session. Thank you Lord for opening this door for me. I am reaffirmed that you indeed have a purpose and you are making something beautiful out of my life. I would not have the courage to join that group if the break up did not happen. Indeed Lord, Your ways are different from our ways. And it is your will which prevails. I pray for your guidance in everything that I do. Whether it's a big or small decision, I seek your advice to keep me away from danger. I am so grateful for my supportive family and I can really feel that they want me to develop my full potential. Lord, I also pray for knowledge in my current job. There are still so many things that I do not understand. I have big shoes to fill and I really need you to guide me. I am thankful also Lord for the friendship that has been formed in the office. It feels good going to the office and see beautiful hearts.
See my heart Lord. Thank you for slowly healing it. Thank you for showing me what I have and for continuously opening doors and windows for me. Open my eyes Lord for those opportunities. Give me the courage to do your will.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Dear God

To my Father, my best friend, and my Savior:
I know not the plans you have for me. I feel like I have made so many wrong choices in the past and that I did not consult you enough for those decisions. I guess I wanted my own way and had my life planned out. At this point, I feel lost because I have no idea what happens next. I no longer have a game plan except to live my life one day at a time. I need to trust you more and I pray for it every day. You know my heart. I tell you everything because I know you see all things. You know and understand the pain I am going through. And I know you can take away the pain anytime. Yet, there is still pain. I have offered this to you many times Lord. I do not know your purpose for me. I do not know the reason why the pain is still here. Like the clay who has gone through molding and heat to become a beautiful tea cup, maybe you are not yet finished with me. I do not know it yet because only you knows my future. I need you in my life Lord and am clinging so tightly and never want to let go. I pray for inner healing Lord. I know in my heart that I can't do this on my own. Today is another day. Help me live as if this were my last and appreciate the simple joys of seeing my family, going to work, meeting my friends, trying out new things, the birds chirping, and all the things I see as I go about my day. Be with me today Lord.